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5 Places I Have Lived

Back to the Me-me-meme

When I first started this journey, my parents brought me to a little old house in Island Heights, NJ. As I remember nothing about this house, I won’t count it in places that I lived.

PLACE ONE
When I was 6-months-old, they moved me to a red, three-bedroom ranch on the corner of Bellwood and Overlook Dr. I lived there in my own room for the better part of five years. Several important things happened there:

My mom, sister, and I moved several times after that. I don’t remember exactly where we ever were. And I don’t think we were ever in one place for a very long period of time. It’s all a blur in my memory.

PLACE TWO
But eventually we wound up in an apartment in Union City, NJ. It was a stone five-story walk-up. We lived on the third floor.

I was a member of an informal gang of young hoodlums. It wasn’t a gang in any real sense. We were just a bunch of kids looking to make trouble. Some of the things we did:

My sister and I bounced through a couple of foster homes until my social worker found my dad. I don’t count these as places I lived either because the memories are, once again, fleeting. I didn’t even live there long enough to go to school. The other kids went to school; I waited around, reading.

PLACE THREE
My dad picked my sister and I up close to the Newark Airport one evening. It was dark and cold - probably late fall. The social worker took us in her car. I think it was above-and-beyond her duty to do such a thing at that time of night - I hope St. Peter remembers that act.

We lived at my dad’s house in Silverton for a little while. He had nice family - a new wife (Aunt Dee), three kids (Timmy, Liz, and Bobby), and a big St. Bernard in the backyard. Bobby and I got along famously. He’s still one of my favorite people ever.

I don’t think we lasted there a year. While I’m uncertain of the circumstances that led to my father offering me up as a “ward of the court”, here are a couple of reasons that I’ve inferred over the years:

An aside: I don’t blame my dad. It’s cool. As a matter of fact, I feel bad for him. He’s apologized (what I call “drunken mia cuplas”) several times. I’ve told him that it’s all alright. “If you need my forgiveness, you got it.”

I was seven or eight-years-old.

The family myth is that at the court hearing regarding my sister’s and my custody, my maternal grandmother (Nan) stepped up and said to the judge, “Enough already. I’ll take the kids.”

The judge asked her, “What if the mother comes around threatening you?”

“I’ll break her fucking neck.”

It might be myth, but I believe it. You betcha.

PLACE FOUR
Nan and Pop raised me as their own, in their home, for the next decade and a half. I could not ask for better parents - I dare not ask for better. If, up in Heaven before I was born, God’s social workers asked which family I wanted to be placed with I would have picked Nan and Pop’s.

People have asked if I believe in angels. I always say, “Yes. I was raised by two.”

I felt best about myself and my place on this planet when my Pop introduced me, even as an adult, as “My Boy, Jim.” Eight years after his death, those memories still choke me up. (If you knew Pop, and he referred you as “His” boy or girl, you’d understand.)

There are too many stories to tell about my times with them. I’ll get to them. I’ve written them before, I’ll write them again. But for now, just know that I lived in their home, my home.

Eventually I moved out, rented an apartment for a couple of years. Got married. Bought a house, lived there for 15 years. Had two children at that house. Wonderful neighbors. Wonderful friends. Lots of stories. Especially about that fucking boiler - “The Beast.” But I’m not counting those because I want to finish this little essay with …

PLACE FIVE
After Nan and Pop died, the house they raised me in went up for sale. My wife and I bought it.

It’s a 100-year-old farm house that was in dire need of an upgrade. The plumbing was original. The electric too. There was no heat upstairs and only one electric outlet in each room.

We brought the house down to its studs and joists and rafters. Tore out all the mechanicals. And knocked off the back porch.

We replace all the mechanicals. Reworked the floor plan, including a “library” and a great room that combines kitchen, dining, and family rooms. Added two bedrooms and a laundry room. And relocated the upstairs bath.

While it’s all brand new, the house is still haunted by the memories of two generations of my family that lived there. I’m raising a third generation.

This is my house.

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